Okay, I wrote this post in early December and I totally forgot to post it. So I am going to post it (pretend it is still December) and then tack on my next post. It is going to be a little long, but I hope you will stick around til the end! So two for one, aren’t you excited!
#1-Winter is Here
Fall is usually my favorite time of year. I love how the trees magically change color and how everything looks at us from a different eye. I love the mountain dashed with brilliant colors and the weather changing to cool down. But this year has felt different. This year I just feel like everything is dying and I don’t like the barren trees. It makes me feel exposed I guess and I am really not looking forward to driving in the snow. I haven’t been looking forward to the change of the leaves, I have dreaded the chill of winter coming and have missed the green grass and flowers in delicate colors. A Sarah McLachlan song keeps rolling through my head;
“The winter here is cold and bitter
It’s chilled us to the bone
I haven’t seen the sun for weeks
Too long, too far from home.”
I guess I have just not been ready to be freezing all the time and never be able to get warm. I also had a hard time sending my kids off to school this fall. I love my kiddos and it is hard to not spend more time with them and to hear their laughter and see them all play together. Now, the nights are full of homework, piano practice and reading minutes. My kids complain about not having time to “just play” and I am totally with them. So, I am not ready for this year to be gone. Where did the year go anyway? I feel like it was just April, but it is December. Seriously, time does go faster when you are older. I just want time to slow down a little. I want to continue to enjoy snuggles with all of my kids before they don’t hug me or they are bigger than me.
So now I am trying to get into the Christmas spirit but I keep dragging my feet, pretending that it is Spring.
One thing for sure is that I realize I like all the seasons for different reasons. I don’t really have a favorite anymore, but I am sure looking forward to spring!
#2 Shine On
I play the piano, I don’t claim to be the best piano player but I can mostly hold my own when I have some time to practice. A couple of weeks ago I played the piano for a musical number at church. I was pretty excited they asked me to, because it was all the men in a family I think the world of. So, the music was brought over and I was like..yep, lots of practice time for this one! It has always been a challenge to get all the practice time I need with my kids. It was hard though to get through all 11 pages of the piece in one sitting without one child needing help, or someone screaming, or you know just life here! It was a beautiful song though and it was a fun challenge to up my game for this quartet, because they are all amazingly good singers.
When I accompany anyone or any group my goal is to go unnoticed and have the singer(s) be center stage. Basically I am letting them shine! When I was preparing this last time it just reminded me that accompanying people is a lot like life. There are many people behind the scenes helping us shine and look good. Do we thank those people enough? Do you think about those people? Do you thank them for their “practice” time. It is a lot like being a parent! But my mind also turned to my Savior. He is always there behind the scenes for me. He has put in a lot of work for me, and continues to always uplift, inspire and strengthen me. What a blessing to have just had the Christmas Season upon us.
Our Christmas was simple and relaxed and we did a lot to help focus not just ourselves, but our children toward Christ. Did you remember Christ at Christmas? I hope you thought about how that little baby born long ago is not a baby anymore, but is your brother and friend and is doing His best to make you shine. Look for those people that help you and allow you to shine, thank them. Then, look for people that you can help and let them shine!