We all face trials, whether big or small, they are trials. Sometimes it is hard to get through them from one moment to the next and others you feel like you are able to walk tall still. No matter what, there are times when we need help. Acknowledging our dependence is not a sign of weakness. It is in fact, at those times when we realize that we need someone else to help, that we truly become stronger. I believe in God. I know He loves me, individually. There have been times in my life when I was trying to do it all, okay, lots of times, but when I finally reach my hand to God things change. It is when my Savior walks with me in my daily life that I can face those trials.
In the Book of Mormon, we learn about the people of Alma. These were people that had given up everything to follow a prophet of God, to live what they believed, and be willing to walk with the Savior. They came under subjection to a mean king and were given heavy burdens to carry, LITERALLY (Mosiah 24:15). They were told that they couldn’t pray any more, or else they would be punished. But you know what, they were still happy. Am I that way when I am given heavy burdens to carry? Or do I feel bad for myself, complain to my Heavenly Father, and pray to have them taken away RIGHT NOW!? Well, I know that I am usually not the happiest.
One thing that I have been learning lately though is to change my prayers. I think it is human nature to not want to be in uncomfortable situations, or ones that hurt, are unpleasant or that make us feel like we are failing. When the people of Alma were told that they couldn’t pray out loud, they probably actually prayed more. They were pouring out their hearts to God…not out loud but in their hearts. If you feel like you are not able to make the most of your prayers at night or in the morning, trying praying in your heart. What a marvelous experience you can have. The other point that I would like to bring up is that the heavy burdens on the people of Alma were not taken away right away…they were made light. Again, back to changing my prayers. Instead of learning from my trials I just want out of them. So now, it is more of a plea to help me carry this burden with His help and see the tender mercies along the way.
And what an amazing thing to happen. There is one burden that has almost consumed me, it is hard, and I don’t like that I think about it constantly and try and figure out ways to take it away. I used to pray to just have it taken away, now I am looking for those little things that make it better. I don’t think that it is magically going to go away, but those little victories are making a huge difference to me, because I am actively working hard WITH my Heavenly Father and actively looking for His hand in my life.
Another scripture that comes to mind when I have been thinking about this, is to live after the manner of happiness (2 Nephi 5:27). Is it possible to be happy when carrying heavy burdens? Yes, it is. It is not always easy to find, but if you look it is there. Sometimes the happiness is discovered through a change of perspective or simply letting go. I learned wise counsel from my mission president, his motto, “Control what you can control.” When we do our best to truly be a disciple of Christ then we will be supported, no matter what. We have to be willing to accept His help.